As you can imagine, I get all type of personalities leaving a whole array of comments from sweet gestures to maniacal rants. Here's a preview of some of them below and why I never reply to youtube video comments.
Lucifer is the father of lies. Reply · Ben Brandes1 week ago I pieced this fractured text together from typing it on FB, so it looks sloppy.
The 33 years of yeshua's life and 33 degrees of freemasonry was taken from the 33 vertebrae of the human spine in which the Kundalini Serpent ascends. yeshua, which was hebrew and came before the names jmmanuel or Jesus means "may his name be blotted out". St. germain isn't real as many new agers believe. Some think he started the gentile order of freemasonry, when it is a hebrew influenced corrupted form of spirituality.
The snake in the garden is Enki, which means serpent in Sumerian
The apple eve but hides the knowledge that the human heart has the atomic shape of an apple before tissue forms. The heart generates more power than the brain by exponential amounts. The trees in the garden represents the body on which the snake claimed to "whisper in her ear". The island was a slave camp for Homo Sapien before stays edited out DNA. There is no answer for this today. They say it's thermodynamics and maybe the asteroid bringing new minerals. Abortion is not bad because until the glands the correlate to chakras is actually formed, the soul cannot enter the body. Animals have a totem - a spirit. Homo Sapienapien did, until Satya went against the will of the leader and gave them hundreds of millions of years if evolution to beasts in a mere flash. He impeded Satuas progress and we are here to complete his work by reaching immortality (Magnum Opus)
Bad karma from witch craft comes from a dirty aura, or using hebrew magic of jehova/allah (King Anu for Anunnaki)
During the crusades, the Illuminati' Ashkenazi jews (hence Nazi) used their magick over their armies to overpower people all over Afro Eurasia to he far east and tortured them beyond belief. They had false texts written like the Mahabharata
Ancient Buddhists worshipped Satya and were taught by Isis to be spiritual warriors. The knowledge was usurped and all major libraries were burned during the crusades.
White Jesus is actually Cesare Bourgeois who wanted to justify killing dark skinned muslims, as well as Jacques De Molay who was the leader of the knights Templar who was Torres for 7
Years before burned at the stake for becoming rich from the knowledge of witchcraft
That got them all rich after they swore an oath of minimalism and celibacy
Jacques De Molay of the knights Templar was tortured for 7 years and this Christ with a throne crown is actually him.
Odin hanging for 9 days Nd nights on Yggdrasil the great tree until he spied the Runes resurrected. This s shown in the Hanged Man tarot card.
Jews and Muslims worship a cube which actually represents Saturn. The good qualities if Saturn have been disconnected from earth
The hyper cube where souls who can't transcend go to reincarnate
Heaven is a delusional matrix
where they feed us back to they system and the shape-shifters can feed on our fear from the shadows
4D beyond time.
The Tower of Babel is the chakras and when the enemy attacked back then around 13-1400 BC. The bricks baked for the building of the tower was actually the burning etheric Chakra tube through the body. This was during the reign of reptilian king Akhenaten who was responsible for the start if monotheism and Judaism. He waste first illuminati' cabal pharaoh people had to learn different languages by region and began warring
The Temple Of Solomon was actually an allegory for temple of the sun
Sol is Latin, Om is Sanskrit and On is Egyptian are Sun in different languages, so that it would be cryptic.
They tell of Solomon turning dark from depravity and sacrificing children moloch
The apple eve but hides the knowledge that the human heart has the atomic shape of an apple before tissue forms. The heart generates more power than the brain by exponential amounts. The trees in the garden represents the body on which the snake claimed to "whisper in her ear". The island was a slave camp for Homo Sapien before stays edited out DNA. There is no answer for this today. They say it's thermodynamics and maybe the asteroid bringing new minerals. Abortion is not bad because until the glands the correlate to chakras is actually formed, the soul cannot enter the body. Animals have a totem - a spirit. Joni sapien did, until Satya went against the will of the leader and gave them hundreds of millions of years if evolution to beasts in a mere flash. He impeded Satya's progress and we are here to complete his work by reaching immortality (Magnum Opus) and destroy the illuminati as he will return to destroy the new world order. There will be disasters to cause wars and famines. China and Russia are waiting for the middle easer to destabilize and the trilateral of the USA, Britain and is real will commence the final cleanse to implement their fascist state under the guise of a one world government to ensure thus never happens again. They will project lasers onto the screen they have created. Whatever doesn't fall into us from chemtrails then rides to the ionosphere to create a screen when biked by HAARP, the radio atomic weapon in Alaska. The masses will already be microchipped and their chakras wi be disabled, as contemplation will be uninstalled. They will use the atomic radio weapon HAARP to boil the ionosphere which holds the chemicals in chem-trails that float up and don't fall down like barium, strontium and other radioactive isotopes.
the can literally project the false Christ and ETs like they showed Tupac.
They will uncover artifacts that were staged to disprove all major religions and make the new age religion. The illuminati foretold this in the book of revelations, which they wrote. This will give them conviction that they are right and will stand for their beliefs and get beheaded. Many Christians will hide. The decline in Christianity has given rise to growing fanaticism in the church. They want to win the piety war with Islam. Isis in Iraq, which is a blaspheme to her holiness, will get the west involved in the Middle East. Sunni and Shiites, obviously.
america will send all it's troops out because ISIS will try and take control of the pipeline to the Caspien sea. Also, there is a great likelihod that HAARP will be used to destroy Al Aqsa to start a religious war. China and Russia will sack the US. After they disable the satellites which are not ground listed here in the US for this exact reason. The masons run the world and call shots by putting puppets in power over puppets in power down the line.
China owns the Panama Canal and Alaska is so close to Russia they will Create a land bridge. Mexico is already on board with China. Their communist government want to live the Chinese people out of China. Both China and Russia know there is a lot ofoilin the US, Canda and Australia and China plans to take it all.
they will take the way and Russia will take the east. Russia will use its sonar tech to from its subs to cause a tsunami to take out NYC and China will nuke it, unless Russia just nukes it first
by way of a dirty nuke in the harbor.
China will meet and attack Russia at the gaping Mississippi River, as the earthquake.
Americans will team up with Russia because Russia hates china more than us and they have our back because if World War Two. Almost gestated by the dark forces
Muslims will come to Italy on boats at night over the Mediterranean and kill people all the way to the Vatican and raid it, which will uncover, which could likely be the ushering in of the new age religion and the rise of the Turkish Matreya, who us supposedly Buddha and jesus aka Sananda.
The economy will have suffered so bad from the natural disaster that martial law will be in place and riots will break out everywhere to protest Iran
they will come in the guise of helpers and then attack and quarantine Americans who will turn to god in vain as they're brought to FEMA camps
the thing about FEMA camps is thus. The coffins were bought in bulk to save money, so debunkers say they just herbaceous deal close to home, but this is way to much. I've seen the FEMA videos and they are gathering food stockpiles en masse'
They got a good deal close to home but not for just incase
a disaster hit
sure the guy who aced the order didn't know, or the person who told him to order them, but up the line the commencement if their totalitarian state is perpetually grinding, so now you have a little more info so you get it all together rather than having to look all over the internet
They can't live on their yachts forever because the ancient ones under Satya/Ea
Holding the prayer position and chanting christian/jewish/muslim incantations destroy the soul even further because this hand position is called the Nemaste' mudra and opens the psychic channels
they drink christ's blood which is actually a toast to their own sacrifice when the NWO comes
I love you Corey, I hope you understand where I am coming from. I wouldn't make expect you to be a Satanist just because you dig this info.
I just trust that'll you'll understand
i am copying and pasting broken fragments and trying to order them
the cabal actually maimed and beat the men, raped and beat the women and threw screaming children in the fire to beating drums and incantations for the reptilians (moloch)
you see the allegorical LIES!
Hitler was not a Rothschild (red shield). This conspiracy theory
has been debunked. The Rothschild used Hitler to their advantage
to move the Jews to palestine, which the Rothschild book the old
testament of false and allegorical/numerology encoded, allegorical
history states they own because of their proclaimed spiritual and
racial superiority. They controlled the assets to fund the both wars,
so how could Hitler win. They started the war, remember? It was a
continuation of problems from Ferdinand's assassination that started
WW1. Hitler lost a lot of land and wanted to reclaim it and Jews
were in the way. He was very racist because Jews have the same
blood as the Rothschild bloodline, so in his mind the world would
have been better without any Jews. He believed in the Occult and
understood what the true origin of the Jewish people is, not the
fake history the Rothschild bloodlines wrote to suit their agenda.
He was prejudice for socio-economic reasons (Usery and central
control of the banks) The Rothschild used Hitler's to move the
Jews back to Palestine. 30,000 Jews were admitted to Switzerland,
7,000 to Sweden and 18,000 to Palestine. 65,000 is a lot of survivors...
Germany was sided with the Ottoman empire during WW1, which
was why their land was taken. Hitler won the approval of the people
and then started his campaign against Jews and their usery. Stalin
was worse than Hitler. He wanted to destroy the false history and
keep the art he liked that would be suitable in his new Nazi World
Order. He was being greedy, but he also had a good plan. I don't
think WW2 was in any way as bad as what the Rothschild royalty
of Europe did to the Gentiles. information. I am prejudice against
Zionism because it is the front for a NWO. Racism is intolerable,
Jews are allowed to collect interest on loans, except
to other Jews.
Hitler was a crazy fuck who did meth and PCP
we'll never know if he actually killed himself, or if he really did get on a boat and go down to Latin America.
Amon Ra destroyed Planet X Nibiru which used to come around every like equinox procession. This was the Anunnaki's home planet. This planet has been debunked by nasa because it cannot be found.
The harmonics between Mars and Jupiter is an octave,; that's a fact.
the debris floated directly in between like all of the other debris from the Big Bang that was not used. This is Fire and Brimstone that the enxient cultures explain the Dogon tribe has an image that is thousands of years old of Sirius a rotating around Sirius B. Nasa found it was identical to their chart around 1997 and the scientists jaws dropped
the pictures are available online (not fake). The 13th sign is Ophiuchus the snake charmer is not a zodiac sign showed comet Ison pass through it which was the red katchina to the Native Americans .Comet Holmes in 2007 was the Blue Katchina which marked the beginning of the transition and the Red Katchina in 2013 which marked the next phase. People thought this was Nibiru Now you have a solid understanding of the what the Occult is about The eye of sauron actually represent the eye of the reptilians - saurians
JRR Tolkiien was into some of this stuff, but he was Christian
and he was also pagan. He wanted to write a mythological legendarium
for England. Wands in Harry Potter are offensive to Daemons. wands are offensive, period. The phoenix in the ashes isn the 4th movie was taken from Egyptian mythology where the cycle of SaTaNaMa occurs. Aztecs descended from Cherokee which are now known to have come from the Middle east and are Yiddish. This is why they started preformed child sacrifice to the reptilians. The Incas and Moches were not Yddish, so they were gentiles, but because of the disconnect (Babel) all humans were subjected to the will of king anu. The pole shift is coming and 4D is coming, but HAARP will prevent ascension for most survivors. Lower dimensions will be ripped open and channeled through our electronic grid. The spirits will be afraid because they will not understand this dimension and multiple spirits will go in to people's body. Only those with higher consciousness will make it through.
the 3 pyramids align with the Orion, where the true gods reside. the intergalactic federation of light and the draconian saurians are at war with Orion.Reply · dustin thompson1 month ago I'm O Rh negative and have Annunaki blood and DNA running through my veins. We are not evil beings. We are peaceful. We want to unite humanity. Not destroy it. There are those that are tying to demonize us and have us killed.Reply · thefathertheson theholyghostbaptizeself4 months ago take a glass of water and pour the water on your head , lips ,tongue ,sexual organ and say i baptize you in the name of jesus . the holyghost and the lord. rememeber to not to have sex before marriage masturbation kissing sex. be good and do not steal and warn people) ask the"lord" loudly to forgive you Remember Keep the sabbath holy. .and read the bible start from now dont eat pig meat.Idont tattoo f you declare with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Say I break every demon and demon contract that comes against me in the name of the holy ghost in the name of jesus and in the name of the lordReply · Lara Green4 months ago Thank you. :) I know that I also have much Reptilian DNA/blood as well as DNA/blood of other races. It all comes down to finding that still place within and knowing what we all are in essence, doesn't it? Thanks again!Reply · shadowsFXD8 months ago Anu I.E, Anu-hasaj aka Dias is not the creator or these anunaki. God's (plural) & Lord's (plural) are not the creator (singular) the true great spirit was always spirit and is self eternal no beginning or end self sustaining. These "god's" had a beginning. A creation. The OAHSPE crushes the doctrine of Anu-hasaj ie Anu aka Dias and all these other false religions. If you wanna read truth about our history and who all these people are worshiping in these false religions then I would get the Oahspe. Ill give you a hint. There's no such actual entity as satan. Satan represents the self. And for all you idiots who think lucifer is satan your wrong also.Reply · LOUISE EIVERS9 months ago Thank you Adam xxxxxxxx Reply · Celeste Gray1 year ago I used to believe like you. Rh negative coded and rh positive coded are way different descent. Eden we had 12 strands in this hell we have 2-3 strands because we fell. All this talk, I follow Jesus type love it promises salvation from the fall of mankind literally, as described in the bible. It is soway healing. All the rest confusing to mme right now. Rh factor is a major key ... ~indigo (rh negative) girl~KnightofAlbion1 year ago 666, The number of man=12 strands of DNA.Adam Hayden1 year ago Hey cousin! Recently, I began listening to interviews done with Michael Tsarion here on YouTube. Personally, I am still unsure about the extraterrestrial aspects of the genetic seeding of this planet, but, he speaks about many issues concerning the Derwyddion (Druids) and the theft of spiritual technology by succeeding "occult" orders and such. Interesting to say the least. Also, since the last time we spoke on FB, it is nice to see that you finally got your YouTube channel up and running.MPPFLIPP1 year ago 22 Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools, 23 And changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things. 24 Wherefore God also gave them up to uncleanness through the lusts of their own hearts, to dishonour their own bodies between themselves: 25 Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen.Evan Burke1 year ago Look up Michael Tellinger! We were created as a slave race by the Annunaki.MPPFLIPP1 year ago 3 Forbidding to marry, and commanding to abstain from meats, which God hath created to be received with thanksgiving of them which believe and know the truth.MPPFLIPP1 year ago 26 For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature:27 And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet. 28 And even as they DID NOT LIKE to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind,FerdiDG1 year ago So moving from dualistic conciousness, where there are only to side to things into the more enlightened "gray area" exploration, I what I call switching into color! I always try to be in that mode. One way of telling is: if you are afraid, feeling uneasy, you are either not ready for the truth or have been pre-programed to be limited so you revert to the black and white vision... if you are care-free, joyous and feel love in your heart, the color glasses are on, and everything has some truth.KnightofAlbion1 year agoin reply to KnightofAlbion I wrote this before listening to your idea..Sorry you are saying the same.Adam Hayden1 year ago Perfect summary of our truth.nadinesnoopy1 year ago Thank you for this vid!!!BeautifulxObsessions1 year ago How then do the Children of our True Savior help to turn things around. This is where I get lost. The problem is so immense, so ancient and everything is so biased. How does a few right the wrongs of thousands of years?MPPFLIPP1 year ago 32 Who knowing the judgment of God, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have pleasure in them that do them. 1 Timothy 4:1-3 (KJV) 4 Now the Spirit speaketh expressly, that in the latter times some shall depart from the faith, giving heed to seducing spirits, and DOCTRINES OF DEVILS; 2 Speaking lies in hypocrisy; having their conscience seared with a hot iron;FerdiDG1 year ago Just to clarify about Mary Magdalene: "Pope Gregory the Great's homily on Luke's gospel first suggested that Mary Magdalene was a prostitute.In 1969 the Vatican, during the papacy of Paul VI,implicitly rejected that by separating Luke's sinful woman, Mary of Bethany, and Mary Magdala via the Roman Missal. This identification of her as a prostitute was followed by many writers and artists until the 20th century. Even today it is promulgated by some secular and even Christian groups. WikipediaKnightofAlbion1 year ago The annunaki didn't create us they actually took humans(lyrians whatever, with 12 active dna strands) and manipulated the dna to just use 2 strands which are for basic survival(animal instinct). so they could make us fear them and do as they willed. Enki tried to activate the 12 strands again so we will seek our own freedom from this slavery and make our own destiny.Upon being caught they again reduced it to 2 strands.... Old scriptures corrupt the truth and tell it opposite way Just a thoughtMPPFLIPP1 year ago 19 Because that which may be known of God is manifest in them; for God hath shewed it unto them. 20 For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse: 21 Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened.FISTROCKPRODUCTIONS1 year ago You're so right brother!! Our messages are crossing by each other on another timeline..LoL. Keep in touch. Love your knowledge. Emerald Blessings.adamabsinthe1 year ago Thanks for the wonderful responses guys :) BeautifulxObsessions1 year ago This will now be the video I reference people to when I am trying to explain what I believe and what I feel with every ounce of my being to be true! THANK YOU! You completely nailed this. <3ScreamingWalnuts1 year ago So if you suffer from "A reptile dysfunction" you have more of their DNA than most! xDLucifera Morningstar1 year ago Meant to say "...but most of the assumptions about 2012 are stupid." Lucifera Morningstar1 year ago I do believe there is a change coming but all these assumptions are stupid. There's too much demonzing, arguing and bickering over these stories. The fact is, we don't know what is going to happen. Most of the stories about 2012 are false and sensationalized. It's beyond me why people fall for this. Why demonize space beings when you have never seen them! Don't believe silly story tellers and channellers. For all you know, Draco aliens may be good, if they exist at all. MPPFLIPP1 year ago to do those things which are not convenient; 29 Being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity; whisperers, 30 Backbiters, haters of God, despiteful, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, 31 Without understanding, covenantbreakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful:
Death, be not proud
By John Donne
Death, be not proud, though some have called thee Mighty and dreadful, for thou art not so; For those whom thou think'st thou dost overthrow Die not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me. From rest and sleep, which but thy pictures be, Much pleasure; then from thee much more must flow, And soonest our best men with thee do go, Rest of their bones, and soul's delivery. Thou art slave to fate, chance, kings, and desperate men, And dost with poison, war, and sickness dwell, And poppy or charms can make us sleep as well And better than thy stroke; why swell'st thou then? One short sleep past, we wake eternally And death shall be no more; Death, thou shalt die.
Everyone I know is brokenhearted. All the genuinely smart, talented, funny people I know seem to be miserable these days. You feel it on Twitter more than Facebook, because Facebook is where you go to do your performance art where you pretend to be a hip, urbane person with the most awesomest friends and the best relationships and the very best lunches ever. Facebook is surface; Twitter is subtext, and judging by what I’ve seen, the subtext is aching sadness.
I’m not immune to this. I don’t remember ever feeling this miserable and depressed in my life, this sense of futility that makes you wish you’d simply go numb and not care anymore. I think a lot about killing myself these days. Don’t worry, I’m not going to do it and this isn’t a cry for help. But I wake up and think: fuck, more of this? Really? How much more? And is it really worth it?
In my case, much of it stems from my divorce and the collapse of the next relationship I had. But that’s not really the cause. I think that those relationships were bulwarks, charms against the dark I’ve felt growing in this world for a long time now. When I was in love, the world outside didn’t matter so much. But without it, there is nothing keeping the wolf from the door.
It didn’t used to be like this when I was a kid. I’m not getting nostalgic here, or pretending that my adolescence and my twenties were some kind of soft-focused Golden Age. Life sucked when I was young. I was unhappy then too. But there was always the sense that it was just a temporary thing, that if I stuck it out eventually the world was going to get better — become awesome, in fact.
But the reality is that the three generations who ended the 20th century, the Boomers, their Generation X children, and Generation Y, have architected a Western civilization that’s kind of a shit show. Being born in 1978, I fall at either the tail end of Gen X or the beginning of Gen Y, depending on how you look at it. I became an adolescent at the time Nirvana was ushering in a decade of “slacker” ideology, as the pundits liked to put it. But the reality is that I didn’t know a whole lot of actual slackers in the 1990s. I did know a lot of people who found themselves disillusioned with the materialism of the 1980s and what we saw as the failed rhetoric of the Sixties generation, who were all about peace and love right until the time they put on suits and ties and figured out how to divide up the world. I knew a lot of people who weren’t very interested in that path.
The joke, of course, is that every generation kills the thing they love. The hippies became yuppies; Gen X talked a lot about the revolution, and then went and got themselves some venture capital and started laying into place the oversaturated, paranoid world we live in now. A lot of them tried to tell themselves they were still punk as fuck, but it’s hard to morally reconcile the thing where you listen to Fugazi on the way to your job where you help find new ways to trick people into giving up their data to advertisers. Most people don’t even bother. They just compartmentalize.
And I’m not blaming them. The world came apart at the end of the 90s, when the World Trade Center did. My buddy Brent and I were talking about this one night last year — about how the end of the 90s looked like revolution. Everybody was talking about Naomi Klein and anti-consumerism and people in Seattle were rioting over the WTO. Hell, a major motion picture company put out Fight Club, which is about as unsubtle an attack on consumer corporate capitalism as you can get. We were poised on the brink of something. You could feel it.
And then the World Trade Center went down. And all of a sudden calling yourself an “anticapitalist terrorist” was no longer a cool posture to psych yourself up for protest. It became something you might go to jail for — or worse, to one of the Black Camps on some shithole island somewhere. Corporate capitalism became conflated somehow with patriotism. And the idea that the things you own end up defining you became quaint, as ridiculous spoken aloud as “tune in, turn on, drop out”. In fact, it became a positive: if you bought the right laptop, the right smartphone, the right backpack, exciting strangers would want to have sex with you!
It’s no wonder that Gen X began seeking the largely mythological stability of their forebearers; to stop fucking around and eating mushrooms at the Rage Against The Machine show, and to try and root yourself. Get a decent car — something you can pass off as utilitarian — and a solid career. Put your babies in Black Flag onesies, but make sure their stroller is more high tech than anything mankind ever took to the Moon, because that wolf is always at the door. And buy yourself a house, because property is always valuable. Even if you don’t have the credit, because there’s this thing called a “subprime mortgage” you can get now!
But the world changed again. And kept changing. So now you’ve got this degree that’s worth fuck-all, a house that’s worth more as scrap lumber than as a substantial investment, and you’re either going to lose your job or have to do the work of two people, because there’s a recession on. Except they keep saying the recession ended, so why are you still working twice as hard for the same amount of money?
We started two wars, only one of them even marginally justifiable, and thousands and thousands of people died. Some of them were Americans, most of them weren’t. The world hated us again. It’s psychically oppressive to realize you’re the bad guy.
Of course, for a lot of the world, America had always been the bad guy…but we didn’t really know that before, because we didn’t have the Internet in our pocket, to be pulled out at every lunch break and before the meal came and when the episode of Scrubs on TV dragged a little, and before bed. We were encouraged to immerse ourselves in the endless flow of information, to become better informed, because knowing more about the world made us better people.
And maybe it did, but it also made us haunted people.
Yesterday morning, when I woke up, I clicked on a video in my Twitter feed that showed mutilated children being dragged from the streets of Gaza. And I started sobbing — just sobbing, sitting there in my bed with the covers around my waist, saying “Fuck, fuck, fuck,” over and over to the empty room. Dead children, torn to bits. And then it was time for…what? Get up, eat my cereal, go about my day? Every day?
So you’re haunted, and you’re outraged, and you go on Twitter and you go on Facebook and you change your avatar or your profile picture to a slogan somebody thoughtfully made for you, so that you can show the world that you’re watching, that you care, that it matters. But if you’re at all observant, you begin to realize after a while that it doesn’t matter; that your opinion matters for very little in the world. You voted for Obama, because Obama was about hope and change; except he seems to be mostly about hope and change for rich people, and not about hope at all for the people who are killed by American drones or who are locked away without trial in American internment camps or who are prosecuted because they stand up and tell the truth about their employers. There does seem to be a lot of hope and change in Fort Meade and Langley, though, where the NSA and CIA are given more and more leeway to spy on everyone in the world, including American citizens, not for what they’ve done but what they might do.
And the rest of the world? They keep making more dead children. They slaughter each other in the streets of Baghdad and Libya and Gaza and Tel Aviv; they slaughter each other in the hills of Syria; and, increasingly, they slaughter each other in American schools and movie theaters and college campuses.
And when you speak up about that — when you write to your Congressperson to say that you believe in, say, stricter control on the purchase of assault weapons, or limiting the rights of corporations to do astonishing environmental damage, or not sending billions of dollars to the kind of people who think it’s funny to launch missiles filled with flechette rounds into the middle of schools where children huddle together — you’re told that, no, you’re the fascist: that people have the right to defend themselves and make money, and that those rights trump your right to not be killed by some fucking lunatic when you’re waiting in line at Chipotle to grab a chicken burrito, and your right to not be able to light your tapwater on fire with a Zippo because of the chemicals in it, or not to end up in a grainy YouTube video while some demented religious fanatic hacks your head off with a rusty bayonet because your country — not you, but who’s counting — is the Great Satan.
And the music sucks. Dear God, the music sucks. Witless, vapid bullshit that makes the worst airheaded wannabe profundities of the grunge era look like the collected works of Thomas Locke. Half the songs on the radio aren’t anything more than a looped 808 beat and some dude grunting and occasionally talking about how he likes to fuck bitches in the ass. The other half are grown-ass adults singing about their stunted, adolescent romantic ideals and playing a goddamn washtub while dressed like extras from The Waltons.
The music sucks. The movies suck — I mean, they didn’t suck the first time they came out, in the 1980s, but the remakes and gritty reboots and decades-past-their-sell-by-date sequels suck. Indiana Jones is awesome, but nobody needs to see a geriatric Harrison Ford, lured out of retirement by the promise of building another mansion onto his mansion, running around with fucking Shia LeBeouf in the jungle. And besides, we’re all media experts now; we can spot the merchandising nods from the trailer all the way to the final credits. There’s no magic left. It’s just another company figuring out a way to suck the very last molecules of profit out of the things we cherish, because that’s what corporations do.
Everything is branded. Even people. People are “personal brands”, despite the fact that, by and large, you can’t figure out what most of them are actually even good for. They just exist to be snarky and post selfies and demand that you buy something, anything, with their picture on it.
You actually know who Kim Kardashian is. In an ideal world, you’d be as unaware of her existence as you are of the names of the Chinese kids who made the futurephone or featherweight laptop you’re almost certainly reading this on. In an ideal world, Kim Kardashian would have spent her life getting sport-fucked anonymously by hip-hop stars in some Bel Air mansion, ran a salon, and either died of a coke overdose or Botox poisoning. There is no reason that her face and her life and her tits and her deathless thoughts needed to be foisted upon the world outside of the 90210 ZIP code. Except that somebody figured out that you could make money off showing people the car accident in slow motion, that people would watch that. Sure they will. People love to watch stupid people do stupid things. It makes them feel less stupid.
And the Internet.
We built this thing — I include myself in that because I started doing HTML in 1994 and was part of the generation who took to the new medium like water and have made the majority of our adult lives creating it, to a greater or lesser degree — because we believed it would make things better for everyone. We believed it would give voice to the voiceless, hope to the hopeless, bring us all together, help us to understand and empathize and share with one another. We believed it could tear down the walls.
And in a lot of ways it has. But in just as many ways, it has driven us all insane. There’s an old story — I have no idea if it’s true — about monkeys who had the pleasure centers of their brains wired up to a button. Push it, Mr. Monkey, and you have an orgasm. And the monkeys did. They pushed the button and they pushed the button, until they forgot about eating and they forgot about drinking and sleeping and simply fell down and died.
What do you do when you first wake up? What do you do as soon as you get into work? After work? Before bed? Hell, some of us wake up in the night and check our feeds, terrified that we’ve missed out on something.
We do it because we are given that reward, that stimulus that tells us oooh, a new shiny! It’s the fourteenth Guardians Of The Galaxy trailer, with 200% more Rocket Raccoon! Some fucking null node in Portland made a portrait of every single character from Adventure Time out of bacon and Legos! And, maybe most poisonous, maybe most soul-crushing: somebody said something I don’t like that makes me feel frightened and threatened! It’s time to put on my superhero costume and forward unto battle!
Except it doesn’t matter. Because you’re not really changing anybody’s mind. How often does that little skirmish end with anybody changing their mind at all, even a little bit? Or does it just end with one of you invariably either blocking the other or saying something like “You know what, I’m going to stop now, because this is getting out of hand.”
Getting out of hand?
Everything they told you about how to live in the world when you were a kid is a lie. Education doesn’t matter, not even on paper. Being ethical doesn’t matter. Being a good person doesn’t matter. What matters now is that you’re endlessly capable of the hustle, of bringing in that long green, of being entertaining to enough people that somebody will want to give you money or fuck you or fund your startup. We’re all sharks now; if we stop swimming for just a little too long, we die. We lose followers. We’re lame. We’re not worth funding, or fucking. Because all that matters is the endless churn, the endless parade, the endless cycle of buying and trying to sell and being bought and sold by people who tell you that they’re your friends, man, not like those others. Microsoft is evil and Google is not evil, except when they are, but that’s not really important, and if you decide that maybe you’re tired of being reduced to nothing more than a potential lead for a sales pitch, like something out of a fucking David Mamet play, then you’re a hater and irrelevant and a Luddite. And besides, what would you do with yourself if you weren’t checking Facebook or playing Candy Crush Saga or watching some teenage dumbass smash his genitals on the side of a pool on YouTube? What the fuck would you even do, bro?
The comedian Bill Hicks used to do a bit where he invited the advertisers and marketers in his audience to kill themselves. He imagined them turning it into an ad campaign: “Oh, the righteous indignation dollar, that’s a good dollar, Bill’s smart to do that.” He laid out the futility of trying to escape: “I’m just caught in a fucking web,” he’d say.
And that’s where we are. You, me, we’re trapped, between being nothing more than consumers, every aspect of our lives quantified and turned into demographic data, or being fucking Amish cavemen drifting into increasing irrelevancy. Because it really does feel like there’s no middle ground anymore, doesn’t it? There’s no way to stay an active, informed citizen of the world without some motherfucker figuring out a way to squirm into your life to try and get a dollar out of you. Only fools expect something for free, and only bigger fools believe they’re anything other than a consumable or a consumer.
We didn’t get the William Gibson future where you can live like a stainless steel rat in the walls between the corporate enclaves, tearing at the system from within with your anarchy and your superior knowledge of Unix command lines. Now it’s just pissed off teenagers who blame you because their lives are going to suck a cock and billionaire thugs trying to sell you headphones and handbags, all to a soundtrack of some waterhead muttering “Bubble butt, bubble bubble bubble butt” over and over while a shite beat thumps in the background.
I know a lot of people who privately long for an apocalypse of some kind, a breakdown of the ancient Western code, because then they’d either be dead or free. How fucking horrifying is that?
But nobody pulls that trigger, because now we’ve all seen what apocalypses look like. We saw Manhattan in 2001 and New Orleans in 2005 and Thailand in 2004 and the Middle East pretty much any given day. Nobody wants to hate, because we’re pummeled with hate every day, by people who are too fucking stupid to understand that the world has passed them by as much as it’s passed by the dude in the Soundgarden t-shirt who still drives around singing along to “Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me!” on his way to his dead-end job. The best lack all conviction, and the people who are full of passionate intensity? Fuck them. We’re all sick of their shit anyway.
And that’s where we are, and is it any goddamn wonder at all that the most profitable drugs sold in America for like a decade running have been antipsychotics? The world seems psychotic.
I feel like I need to figure this out, like figuring all of this out and finding new ways to live has become the most important thing I could possibly do, not just for myself and the people I love but for the entire human race. I don’t mean me alone — I’m far too self-loathing to have a messiah complex — but I feel like, for me, this is the best use of my time. Because the world is making me crazy and sad and wanting to just put a gun in my mouth, and it’s doing the same thing to a lot of people who shouldn’t have to feel this way.
I don’t believe anymore that the answer lies in more or better tech, or even awareness. I think the only thing that can save us is us. I think we need to find ways to tribe up again, to find each other and put our arms around each other and make that charm against the dark. I don’t mean in any hateful or exclusionary way, of course. But I think like minds need to pull together and pool our resources and rage against the dying of the light. And I do think rage is a component that’s necessary here: a final fundamental fed-up-ness with the bullshit and an unwillingness to give any more ground to the things that are doing us in. To stop being reasonable. To stop being well-behaved. Not to hate those who are hurting us with their greed and psychopathic self-interest, but to simply stop letting them do it. The best way to defeat an enemy is not to destroy them, but to make them irrelevant.
I don’t have the answers. I don’t know some truth that I can reveal to everyone. All I can do is hurt, and try to stop hurting, and try to help other people stop hurting. Maybe that’s all any of us can do. But isn’t that something worth devoting yourself to, more than building another retarded app that just puts more nonsense and bullshit into the world? Just finding people to love, and healing each other? I think it is.
Until I know more, I’ll just keep holding on. I won’t put the gun in my mouth. Because all of this sadness is worth it if there’s still hope. And I want to still have hope so badly. I still want to believe, in myself, and in you.
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