Our Prince Is Now King: Adam Absinthe on Adam Absinthe "You’ve seen me on the red carpet
you've kissed the mask (tactile)
and I've given you the insides"
Untitled, Adam Absinthe
Musician, Actor, Author, Painter, Makeup Artist, Web Icon, Student, Shipwreck. After nearly 5 years of disappearing into the depths of southern California's hell our Hero returns to tell the tale of rebirth with a full studio album just in time for 2012.
Hi Adam. Where the fuck have you been for the last two years?
I thought I stood a chance at a normal life but I was severely misguided. Unfortunately you have to be average to be normal it seems and I had to come back to what I know best: inspiring and leading instead of letting dunces meddle above me in my affairs. Do you know what it’s like to be in a movie with actors like Ed Harris or VIPing nightclubs or even doing makeup for runway shows and then when the economy crashes you have to start applying to Starbucks from your friends couch? It really does a number on you. After my break from music I turned to acting and had a fairly decent go of it. Then about two years ago, I fled Los Angeles burnt out from the druggies, whores, and undiagnosed disturbed personalities, and decided to go to college in Orange County. I stopped using social networking and became a real hermit. I’ve reemerged recently and am working on my solo career while earning a degree.
In retrospect, what does 2011 Adam think of Adam of the last decade? If you could go back and talk to Adam Absinthe of that time - what advice would you give him? (And would he follow it?)
He would not listen to a thing I said. He was just the fool of the Tarot about to push the limits of reality. I’d probably steer him clear of the few times he died, a few exes and major life decisions like moving out of the country or giving up his goals time and time again to live a normal life with abnormal women. Have you ever tried to change someone? It’s impossible. They have to truly want to do it themselves. I’d tattoo independence on his forehead to remind him that nobody is going to help him but him during the next decade.
What is something your fans would be shocked to know about you? Take a moment to correct one or two misconceptions out there about the real Adam.
Well its important to know that I usually start these misconceptions or purposely not clear them up. For instance sexuality is always fun to mess with when it comes to peoples perceptions of me. How republican of them to constantly bring that up. What is true that many people don’t know about me are as follows: I’ve lived in 8 major cities and 2 countries, I had spinal meningitis in 4th grade and nearly died, I was in a national commercial for Guitar Center, I’ve had experiences with dead people, The record label team behind 50 Cent and Eminem spoke to me on Myspace about a record deal and a cartoon and my involvement in it, a song of mine is used in a porno, I had a scene with Juliette Lewis and Orlando Bloom that was cut, I didn’t meet my mother until I was 20 years old, my grandmother was a model for companies like Guinness and Chanel No. 5 in Ireland, I have a poetry/art book on amazon.com, I’m a certified director of films according to The New York Film Academy, I was a professional makeup artist for 3 years and hated it, I’ve been legitimately homeless twice, and I was born on the 4th of July which is interesting since my highest ideal is freedom.
Has the public image of Adam Absinthe been helpful or harmful to your current/ future ambitions?
It would only damage circumstances that aren’t ambitions. Perhaps trying to get a job in an office. Obviously that’s counter-intuitive to my will and talents. I’ve made sure to be a personality that sets trends rather than following them, which is why, several subcultures in addition to average people flock to my work. It’s hard to categorize me, which is precisely by design. Quite a few bands and artists are riding trends right now but it’s a short ride. I’ve been relevant for 6 years and it’s for a reason. I’m about to reemerge with new work and the fact that it may take off right where I left off and be successful is a testament to that.
What is the most difficult or profound lesson you've had to learn over the last few years?
I have such a shattered family that I turn to friends and girlfriends for support. It seems as though somewhere deep in my subconscious I have attracted people that leave me dejected time and time again like my family did. It’s as if my subconscious brain believes the normalcy of the ones closest to you as a sweet kiss from Judas and usually results in me starting life all over each time the fallout occurs. At first I thought I could diminish the cycle by finding people the opposite of previous personalities until I realized that I’m simply an obsidian mirror of these people. When I learned to change from within is when the law of attraction really started to make sense. It’s also daunting to me that rather than close off to the idea of finding good people, I simply have learned to be more independent and in control of my own things. Virtually everyone who was ever a figure in my life who one typically holds close like a friend, lover, or family member has betrayed me with such brutality that its forced me to change my life ambitions to be able to take care of myself and that my friends is the real reason why I’m haven’t been displaying my true potential.
Many artists enter a period of sobriety and admit to a deadening of the nerves, an inability to access the poetry and fire and pain that has infused their art for so long. While others find sobriety clarifies their thoughts and crystallizes articulation. When and why did you stop drinking? What has been the effect on your art and on your life in general?
The quitting of something doesn’t cure your demons. I think these artists get depressed and that’s what blocks their channels after they quit drinking because they finally have to face themselves and their empires of bullshit from being addictive idiots. Drinking or not, the springboard artists are between them and the divine relies heavily on their ability to connect clearly to the source of their gift and their will untainted by ego. Whether that requires drugs or sobriety has different relevance to different people. For me: none. I’ve learned moderation over the years because excess was a baser component on my necessary path. I would have made Dionysus proud. For the record I drink but abstain from any sort of drugs because I’ve seen how badly they’ve ruined some of my old friends. I prefer a clear mind and body when working though unless someone wants to give me a hallucinogen with a shaman.
In your professional and personal life, who do you look up to?
It’s very rare I look up to anyone. I’m very disenchanted with humans. Certain people have reached a transcendental area and have used that clear sight to teach others. I’m talking about people like Tony Robbins or Eckhart Tolle. When I meet a non-celebrity in my life that has acquired something close to that I’m ready to let them in and really revere them. This is about as rare as Moldavite.
Fill in the blank. Love is: _____________________________.
Love is NOT possession, obsession, codependency, or a replacement for the hole your deadbeat mother or father left. It is not a dick or vagina. It’s not the very self-serving succulent slurping up of attention that this poor pathetic social networking generation has asphyxiated themselves with. It’s transcendental and yet has been brutally ravaged by ones ego and reptilian brain. I have not experienced it truly as few do but will one day and one day soon due to my ascension to a higher Chakra/Sephirot realm which truth be told has been a struggle. “Then raised she opens to him with Myrrh moistened finger, and with one, heavy scented, dew dripp’d kiss, he drinks deep from the fountain of thirst and empties her cup of sorrows. With Myrrh moistened fingers she opens to him the door of a realm he now sees with her eyes. And trading longing for longing, in her tender arms he yields to her his promised soul, and dies.”
Where did the name "Adam Abs1nthe" come from? How did the band get started?
Sadly a lot of people still lack the sense to realize that as an artist I speak in metaphors and I’m not literally naming myself after the alcoholic beverage. It’s a symbol, a representation of our colorful, at odds artists who lived life on the fringes and were as famous for their personal lives as they were for their work. Yes I align myself with the Van Gogh’s and the Oscar Wildes. Spend a night with me and see there is no room for disagreement there. The reason there’s a 1 in the name Absinthe is because it has numerology value in correspondence to my real name, birthday, the magician tarot card, and my magical name Derkesthai. Only an extremely keen occultist will know for sure how that works out.
Nikki Sixx famously said "Artists are very young, and say, Um, ok, to these industry dudes." How much of the image of Adam Absinthe did you control and how much was decided for you?
See the full answer at http://getfanged.com/
What made you decide to take a break from the public eye? For you, what is the best/worst part of being very famous?
This is sort of like the more in depth answer to your first question. I was never very famous. Brad Pitt is famous. Christina Aguilera is famous. I was just able to utilize the social aspects of the digital age putting the power behind the music and art in my own hands and getting very popular from it and now many, many others have caught on to that tactic. Around late 2008, I fell into a deep depression and ended up living in a crappy apartment in North Hollywood broke and alone right before my music was supposed to take off. I fled with a girl and got lost for a long time in that. I tried to return as an actor and it seemed promising but that too burnt me out. I ended up hitting a second rock bottom and eventually decided to try normal life. I went to college. Nearing the end of that I had yet another breakup and subsequent homelessness and realized my rock bottom had a trap door. I once again lost everything I had spent a year building. What followed was as nearly as dark as my early twenties. I ended up reaching out to friends for help and in some strange vortex of events, every single “friend” ended up fucking me over, breaking my trust, and putting me in an even worse situation. I was crippled, trapped, and hopeless and finally decided it was time to go. I moved back to Hollywood and got involved with some very shady characters I knew would accompany me on my self-destruction goals. I tried killing myself for a few days but letting my drug addict friend fill me up with deadly combinations of things but I guess it wasn’t time to go yet. After that I slowly pulled myself out of the hole I was in and some strange enlightenment had happened. It’s put me where I am right now. I can’t even put in words the mental anguish the last year has brought but it seems as though the dawn is breaking and my work that had started several years ago is finally sprouting again now that I’m rooted. There is most certainly a death and resurrection theme here. Perhaps a Joseph Campbell like hero test.
If the music industry is as pornographic as they say, is the artist the slave or the master?
See the full answer at http://getfanged.com/
Do you agree with the statement that it's better to burn out than fade away?
I just don’t see why you can’t achieve immortal divine light. For some reason death brings life to artists work. There has got to be a third side to that coin.
Your book, Red, Raw and Swhore is described as your record of Adam Absinthe before he was Adam Absinthe. It reads like a visceral outpouring of your innermost thoughts; unapologetic feelings etched in ink, guts, tears, and the blood-stained threads of memory. What do you think of the book now? Do you ever go back and reread it?
I’ve never owned my own copy. I still just have a pdf on my computer. It is what it is. It’s in the same family as poems or songs but can’t be classified that easily. What’s far more remarkable is the triptych of books that were hand written and the artwork included from which the book was based off of. I wish there was a way to mass- produce the organic diary/art/songbooks Red Raw and Swore was born from. I’m proud of it and hope to make a sequel along with a book of quotes, which may actually take the rest of my life since quotes don’t take up much paper.
Do you still keep a physical/artistic record of your thoughts and lyrics?
Since that awful period of depression, I hadn’t been able to write like I used to. The last time I had my own place to sit and write and work on music was 2007. I’m finally back in a space like that for the first time since then. I was so depressed the other night I began writing 4 songs. I guess it’s back.
Family is a theme you return to often in the book. What is family to you? Do you see yourself with your own someday?
See the full answer at http://getfanged.com/
Fans want to know about your current love life. What condition is Adam's heart in these days? Are you in love?
I mean way to follow up the previous question huh? We are currently in the play “Loveless”, Act 2012. I’m just waiting for my shining Grail Maiden. She won’t be totally human so it may take awhile. I’ll recognize her from her lack of a Facebook addiction, modeling career, huge array of sexual partners, obsession with guys in bands, alcoholism, low self esteem in the guise of vanity, and dedication to material objects and bad television shows. Quite honestly she’ll probably be shopping in Trader Joes or in Yoga class when I stumble upon her completely oblivious to her natural genetic Druidic nature. (sighs)
At the end of your life, how do you want to be remembered?
A husband, a dad, a writer, an artist, a visionary. A leader in the new Aeon. In no particular order. All we really are is a 2 inch dash on a gravestone between two numbers but the true “me” hopefully will be recycled through the minds and hearts of future generations if I can accomplish what I set out to do.
Fill in the blank. Art is __________________________.
Trying to define it like saying “it’s symbolic expression to affect people” only ruins it. I tend not to think about art in logical terms. It’s what I do to stay alive; a microcosmic god creating.
As a trained make-up artist, do you consider make-up an art that conceals or reveals?
It should reveal. Makeup 3 inches deep on a girl is a beacon of light to a predatory man in the dark because you’re wearing your low self esteem like a siren.
"Give a man a mask and he'll tell you the truth" As someone who has been both the maker and wearer of masks, what does this famous statement from Oscar Wilde mean to you?
It makes me think of Velvet Goldmine haha. Right now for me that statement would have very much to do with what I’m working on thematically for my next album. Reading through the atrocious postings of today’s younger generation on the various social networking sites I can see how bad the world needs healing. To see clearly in the stillness one would behold that most of us are perfect being who we are but because we are driven insane to function in an insane world everyone wears a mask otherwise known as ego to simulate a false impression in this prison like matrix that few of us notice we’re in. The idiotic ramblings have the foul stench of fear if your senses are acute enough. If our consciousness would accelerate at the same rate as our technology we’d be in much better shape. As for me, I tend to wear my mask inside out. Sensitive intelligent individuals pick up on it while others just take whatever garbage in eyeliner and a leather jacket is given to them.
You've said that you don't consider Andy Warhol an artist - but a pop icon. Why?
I don’t like visual pop art. Sounds like visual pop tart, which Andy certainly was. I like his life, not his work. I love the Velvet Underground. He was both and artist and an icon but illustrations and silkscreens are like a Brittney Spears album to me. I’m much more of a Leonardo DaVinci guy. Slightly out of context, I know but Andy just reminds me of that shit head in the Banksy film Exit Through The Gift Shop who went by “Mr. Brainwash.”
What is the last book that you read? The last song you listened to?
I’m reading about 7 books right now instead of studying and doing my homework. I have a problem with not finishing my books. Most of the stuff I read is metaphysical in nature. I’ll read a novel every now and then but I’m generally a nonfiction guy. I’m also learning a broad range of subjects being in college and having nearly completed my general ed.
You've been an artist, a musician, a model, an actor, an author, a student and a symbol. Which 'hat' do you enjoy wearing the most? The least?
I could give you some run of the mill answer like “well they’re all different and I like them all”. I’ll spare you. Music is my favorite. I’m the best at visual art and I despise modeling. Acting is really difficult because you always have to train and keep your chops up or just do nothing and play yourself in every audition, which requires no talent. Walking in a room every day and acting like an idiot in front of a table and then finding out they went with someone else gets old but the people who stick it out make a nice living out of it.
What's next for you, Adam? Where do you see yourself five years from now? Any top secret projects we should know about?
Several short term goals include my music albums, writing a few books, getting my degree, and becoming a tattoo artist. It would be really nice if I could find a stand up human being to share it with.
Google lists over a million (1,160,000) websites for Adam Absinthe, but where can
your fans find YOU?
Facebook.com/adamabsinthe - Me
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Adam-Abs1nthe/134625599932298 - My music
And www.adam-absinthe.net will soon be giving way to my new site http://adamabsinthe.com which is under construction but it will be moderated by me as opposed to waiting for a web designer to update and keep up with my visions.
Will we ever see you take the stage again? Do you miss it?
I think I will indeed and not as far off as one may think. Be prepared for blood and tears.
What's got you Fanged?
Currently it’s my obsession with Anunnaki genes, the origins of the Elvin race and protecting the grail from the atrocities of the Roman Catholic Church altering history and perpetuating the greatest lie of all time. This will be further explained in my coming music project and on my site. The album will also be a real deep introspective look at my life and is sure to being people back to the days of powerful emotional music like Trent Reznor used to do for us.
For the full interview go to: www.getfanged.com
Let them come who wish to come, And let them go who wish to go, And do not harm to me or mine. -Ancient Icelandic Invitation Formula for the Elven Folk
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